I have a x-month old and already I'm thinking, I'm going to miss him at this age. Have you felt that way, and what age do you miss the most?
There are so many moments. But you only get one of each.I vividly remember staring at Carter a few times in his infancy, forcing myself to memorize his face as it was in that moment, because I knew it would be gone the next day. Or the next hour. Or minute. In my chest, they felt like panicky, desperate, sad efforts to hold onto the way he was. I remember the positions I was situated in with him, staring. But the picture of his face? Gone.
Today, I can't remember the last time I had a stare-and-memorize moment.
If going backwards in time were an option, I'd like to go back to his newborn stage for a few days ... err ... without the plummeting, post-preggo hormones and the whole figuring out breastfeeding puzzle.
Partly because I'm not blind to how to take care of an infant anymore, but also because I LOVED him at that size; being able to snuggle up with him in bed, smell him and kiss him without him hitting me and telling me NO! then running away (it's okay, you can laugh). It's not exactly that I don't love seeing him growing into his individualism and having a strong personality ... but it's a heavenly experience reveling in a tiny being that's so innocent, he doesn't know how to do anything but wiggle and love. Without my newborn Carter, I doubt I would have ever known that were possible.
And also? There's something really sexy about a man holding a newborn. I'd like to sit back and watch that again.
I know that the older he gets and less bobbling he does, the less cute he's going to be. He won't get stared at as much by strangers in stores, he won't rely on me for his every waking need. This growing thing happens to be a daily occurrence for us. Today, for example, it was unseasonably warm outside so I took him to a park (which happens to be in one of the neighborhoods we're considering building a house, note how pretty those houses are in the background!)
He was sliding down slides by himself. I don't even know who this baby is.
Day 2. What makes you uniquely you?
Day 3. A photo that makes you happy
Day 4. Style 31. Post a pic of you in your favorite outfit.
Day 5. Write a blog thanking someone who has made your heart come alive.
Day 6. Your most embarrassing moment
Day 7. Do you believe in the "cry until he sleeps" method?
Day 8. Have a beauty secret (e.g. hair tip, make up tip)? Share, please!
Day 9. What virtues do you value in yourself?
Day 10. What are some of your favorite MAC products, and what foundation/powder do you wear?
Day 11. Post a recipe. Or if you don't cook, try a new recipe and write about how it turned out (pictures please!).
Day 12. Write about what wears you out as a woman.
Day 13. A YouTube video
Day 14. Style 31. Post an outfit pic!
Day 15. What do you wish for?
Day 16. How old was Carter when he started sleeping through the night and how did you do this?
Day 17. Write about 3 things that make you happy.
Day 18. If you could, what would you tell yourself before you had your baby?
Day 19. Write about your significant other
Day 20. Write about your job and why you love it or hate it.
Day 21. Write about your most vivid childhood memory. Post a picture of you taken over ten years ago.
Day 22. What did you do today?
Day 23. Who's your celebrity look alike?
Day 24. What is God teaching you presently?
Day 25. Style 31. Post a pic of your favorite comfy clothes.
Day 26. What do you hope your grandchildren will say about you someday when you are gone?
Day 27. Who are your favorite bloggers?
Day 28. Write about your insecurities as a woman.
Day 29. Your day, in great detail
Day 30. What do you think is going to happen to you after you die?
Day 31. Your favorite quote