cop out.

I don't know where I've been or where I am, mentally and physically. I've rushed from fertility to psychiatric to endocrinological considerations in a matter of months. I really just want to wait until it's all over, and I can write, ::insert treatment:: worked! at the end of a long, tmi blog post.  In the meantime, I've been playing with this little boy. Who's gotten, pretty big, by the way. 


His waytooshort haircut kills me.


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49 comments:

  1. I follow your blog and have a similar story to you (Our boys both have the cutest ears!). Infertility gets two thumbs down. Hang in there!

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  2. My goodness, his smile! What a cutie :)

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  3. I LOVE his hair! Though I do have to say it makes him look older! ;)

    Hope all is going well with you & you are on your way to being happy and healthy <3

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  4. Yikes! He looks so big! :) Hang in there. IF treatments suck the life outta you. *HUG* I'm here if you need anything.

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  5. Carter looks adorable with his short hair. Sorry for all the stress you're going through right now I hope there's a huge light at the end of the tunnel and it glows baby pink. Keeping my fingers crossed that everything will work out well for your family. Take care!

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  6. I hope you're ok... his hair does look great. We've missed you, Carter is so big now!

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  7. I've missed your blogs. I hope all is going well. Know that you are missed :)
    Amy

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  8. I am sure everything is going to be fine! Hugs n kisses.

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  9. Thinking of you, praying for you!

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  10. I've been missing you! Hope you get things figured out soon. Praying for you!

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  11. I have missed your blogs too! Write, if it makes you feel better, no matter what it is. I am praying for you. And by the way, Carter is seriously one of the cutest children I have ever seen!

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  12. Keep your head up girl! This too shall pass.

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  13. I've been missing your blogs and your videos! I hope you are doing well :)

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  14. Hope you are doing better. Hang in there.. you have a whole community of friends that are thinking of you and wishing you lots of happiness and tons of luck with what you are going through. Looking forward to hearing your updates when you are ready to share.

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  15. Hi Meghann, Just checking in to see how you are doing. I hope you are okay and things are getting a little better. Thinking of you x

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  16. I think you should really look into why your body is acting the way it is. Seeing a naturopathic doctor could give you so many answers. Going on special diets. It's helped several people I know get pregnant naturally when it seemed impossible before. Best of luck, it's always an emotional rollercoaster ride. Sending baby dust your way <3

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    1. I agree with the naturopathy and diet considerations. It will change your life. Get well soon :)

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  17. Keep your head up, lovie... Will be sending good thoughts your way.

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  18. ... Hope today brings a smile to your face...

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  19. Missing your posts and your vlogs. Hope all things are all looking up...

    HUGS!
    Jess
    kyleandjessp (on YT)

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  20. Meghann, I miss you!! I have been thinking about you lots and praying that things are going better for you!

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  21. Hope all is well. Please update soon to let us all know that you're okay!

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  22. Hi Megan!!
    life is 10% what happens to you and 90% of how you react to it. I also have infertility and ADD problems. I am not perfect and don´t know everything but i suggest you try to have some perspective on life- your problems aren´t the worst, there are people with much bigger problems. you have a miracle boy and a seemingly loving husband (it doesn´t even matter if he were not).
    So read books and do Yoga, eat healthy food , and go on with life. You can start looking for other purposes in life, not just having a baby or giving carter a sibling. Thats exactly what i am thinking/doing. Get out of the house and meet people outside of the housewives circle- you would be surprised to know that there are lots of things to do in this world.
    So accept life as it comes....don´t resent. Do whatever you can do to improve your seemingly " difficult problems", and leave the rest. Your ADD isn´t a problem, you can look up on the web about the talents of ADD people. You are who you are, just accept yourself the way you are and find some coping mechansims for the tasks that you find difficult.
    I recommend you to read the books by Ekhart tolle :the power of now and new earth. Hope to see you soon on youtube again.
    Lots of love from Germany

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    1. Love this! Very insightful! Best wishes to all!

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  23. Its from me again. I want to quote you my favorite writer Elisabeth Gilbert (Eat, pray and love).
    “There is so much about my fate that I cannot control, but other things do fall under the jurisdiction. I can decide how I spend my time, whom I interact with, whom I share my body and life and money and energy with. I can select what I can read and eat and study. I can choose how I'm going to regard unfortunate circumstances in my life-whether I will see them as curses or opportunities. I can choose my words and the tone of voice in which I speak to others. And most of all, I can choose my thoughts.”
    ― Elizabeth Gilbert

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    1. thank you for this, it really helps me. i've read it over a few times

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    2. HELLO MEGHANN

      i was wondering how do you feel since Carter is in school? do you like to spend some times alone what do you do of your days? i hope you will do some new video we miss you and your super ideas and your smile! i feel like a lost a friend since you dont make any videos! kiss from france

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  24. His hair is nogwaytooshort! It looks good on him <3

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  25. Hey Megh,

    Missing you and your updates on Carter and life in general. Hope all is well :) xx

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  26. I am praying you are okay! Your regular readers are worried about you! I hope that you are simply enjoying everyday life as a mommy and are not absent in the blogging/vlogging world because you are really struggling! Never forget you have people who care about you and are willing to talk in the web community.

    I personally could never do what you do by putting my life out for everyone to read about. That takes a very brave person, but I am a lot like you in many ways I am a mommy to a sweet 2, almost 3, year old boy and also suffer from social anxiety. Like you I always tried to look as good as possible to make up for not "fitting into the mold of society" Only recently have I talked to a doctor about it. I would like to think if our paths ever crossed we would be good friends.

    If you are interested at all in talking, comment back to this anonymous post and I will find a way to message you. I have never had many "girl" friends because I find most of them fake but you do not seem like that at all and I would love to have someone I could talk to as well, other than my husband and family!

    I promise I am not a weirdo, even though I totally feel like it typing this comment. This is so unlike me to reach out to someone in the web community, but something told me to, so just let me know

    Amanda

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  27. missing your updates :)
    Hope all is well -- hope life is treating you well.

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  28. Hope you're okay Meghann. (Was glitterbug, now mumtutu x) thinking of you x

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  29. I am sorry you are having a tough go. Do what YOU need to do!

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  30. I LOVE your blog! I'm a new follower and was hoping that you might return the favor! Just go to: www.enjoyingtheepiphany.com, read it, and follow me if you like it! That'd be AMAZING!!

    Positively,
    Sarah

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  31. Meghann! I have been following your blog for 3 years now, and definitely miss your postings! Hope you are doing okay, and please know that you have tremendous support and love surrounding you. Love the cute party bags you posted recently on instagram. You are such a wonderful mommy!!

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  32. Hi Meghann I've been checking in hoping to see a new post from you :) Anyhow I hope you are doing well with everything !!

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  33. Hope you are well. Miss your posts.

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  34. Hi Meghann!! Just wanted you to know that you and your family are continuously in my prayers. Hoping that all is well and happiness fills your days! :)

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    1. Just checked on you again! We miss reading about you! My little boy, Esmond, and I have watched your videos since he was born. He is a year younger than Carter and we almost named him Carter! That's when we fell in love with you and little Cart. Anyway! Long comment from a bored Mommy... Hope to hear from you soon! xoxo

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  36. Hey Meghann. Just popping by again to see how you were getting on. I hope you're alright and that without the pressure you put on yourself to blog and share everything you're feeling a bit more chilled xxx

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  37. I come here a the time hoping your back :( hope all is well and I hope you dont stay gone forever.

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  38. Hi Meghan,

    I wish you and your beautiful family a wonderful Holiday~season, filled with all the Miracles of Love.
    I must say I missed your lovely writing, it's always a JOY to hear you speak about what you Love, and to feel the Love you have for Carter.
    Hope you are enJOYing yourself and Feeling Good, being Happy truly is what we all really want... No matter what we want in Life, what our dreams are, what are our true hearts~desires and deepest wishes.... what we reeaaally want: ...is just to be happy. <3
    We have an innate longing for Happiness, simply because it is our natural state of being. When we are really happy, we are really being... ourselves.
    Being who we truly are, we feel the Love that is inside of us, the Love that exists within us, the Love that is who we ARE! We are made from LOVE and we are born to Love.... And when we do... we feel happy. When Love flows through us, into the world, we feel the the most AMAZING Feeling ever: the JOY that we feel then is the true Happiness we all long for, it is the Happiness that is God's gift to us when we open our heart to Love. I love what was written on my Angel~calendar a couple of days ago: "Every time you smile and feel happy, you are fulfilling God's will."
    This so resonates with what I believe, what I know to be true: above all God wants us to be happy, and when we say YES to happiness and accept God's gift of Love, we make His greatest wish come true: for us to be Happy.
    We DESERVE to be Happy, ALWAYS, and to want to be happy, is but your inner longing to be yourself, and express who you truly are into this world.
    Meghann, you ARE AMAZING, and remembering your own Magnificence and Divine Perfection, you SHINE your Light into the world... and your Happiness is your Gift, not only to yourself, but to all the people around you, to EVERYONE!!!! ....you LIght up the entire world!!!!
    Now THAT's something BEAUTIFUL to remember... when you light up your Christmas tree this Holiday~season... :) My wish for you Meghann.... is that you remember how Amazing you reeaally are... and when you do: the inevitable happens: HAPPY is what happens.

    side note...you just made God's wish come true. :)

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  39. oooo ooo I love that hair cute! Such a big boy face:) swoon! And seriously, what I wouldn't give to be able to write as witty and sharp as you. Love how you write girl! I hope things are better? How are you doing?

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  40. I dont know you but i Miss you, Or what i have gotten to now of you. I am worried because not hearing from you might mean that your heart still is in pain and I hope you will make 2013 into your year, whichever way you chose.

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  41. Really hoping we see an update from you soon either here or on YouTube. I've followed since almost the beginning and we all miss you! Hope things are ok!!

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